Life Beyond the Squares
Life Beyond the Squares
Josh and I got in a fight last night. It’s been about 14 hours and we haven’t spoken. We slept in different rooms. More like attempted to sleep in other rooms but I know I barely slept.
Nights like this don’t happen often around here but they do happen. We suck at communicating when we are upset. This is something we have talked about time and time again. We have come up with a game plan to stick to when we get frustrated but the truth is, we usually fail at this plan. We are both stubborn and both of us shut down when our feelings are hurt.
What we are fighting about, is so small in the grand scheme of things. We love each other. We know that. But sometimes it’s freaking hard to be in a relationship. We each have our own “stuff” going on and it’s hard to not bring that stuff into our relationship. I am sensitive as hell and when my feelings are hurt or I am frustrated I do two things: get emotional and retreat.
If you go to our social media accounts right now, you would see that both of our last posts include each other. They are both memories of us on different vacations. Our bios mention each other and through the little squares, you see that we have an amazing life together full of memories.
All of those things are true.
What you don’t see is the fight that we had last night. What you don’t see is that I get frustrated every single time he leaves dishes in the sink or messes up the decorative hand towels. What you don’t see is my attitude, stubbornness and insecurities. But these things exist in our relationship.
These things exist in every relationship. People just choose to curate their feeds differently, portraying a picture perfect lifestyle. Right now as I scroll through, I see lot’s of happy families and homes. It makes me feel less than. On a happy day, I would smile looking at those little squares but today, it hurts.
I’m not one to air our dirty laundry but I think it is important for all of us to remember that the color coded, perfectly curated feed isn’t the reality. This blog is all about connecting women and being relatable. I know some of y’all will admit that this is sometimes your reality and it’s okay. Your life and your feed doesn’t have to be flawless. There is life beyond the squares.
