Holy Heck Ya'll, I have a two month old!
It has been a hot minute and a new baby since I last wrote!
Baby Ward is here and HE is perfect.
Holden James Ward made his (early) appearance on July 31st, 2020 after a quick & scary birth. I want to keep this one light and airy so you can read allllll the details of our Birth Story here.
I told myself I would take the first two months to really be present with my son and take it all in. He is two months now so I guess the time is come to get back in the groove of things. If I am being honest, I am exhausted both physically and mentally. But living motherhood is also euphoric!
If you’re wondering what you’ve missed, there’s not much besides the baby! Since the day after we got home from the hospital, we have had family in town visiting almost every weekend. My mom was supposed to get here a week before my due date to help me prep the house and some meals before baby arrived. Since Holden came early, she ended up getting here the day after we got home from the hospital. She stayed for a month which was such a blessing! My dad came out for a few days when Holden was just a week old. Then we had my Brother-in-law, followed by my MIL and then my FIL, all about a week apart. We had an 11 day break and then my middle sister came out with my niece, nephew & our mom. We still have some visitors scheduled over the next month. Getting to visit with everyone and see them love on our boy has been so incredibly special. Every time someone leaves, it’s bittersweet. On one hand, the house is empty and we miss our people. But on the other hand, things slow down and we get to really soak in the little moments as a family of 3 + Denver dog.
Our very neutral house has become baby central, with primary colored play mats, chairs, swings! Our schedules are virtually non existent and revolve around feeding and sleeping baby. Coffee is consumed way more and our once magical master bedroom has become littered with breast pumps, nipple shields and burp cloths. But the smiles & coos that our little love shows us are so stinkin’ precious.
Holden is so close to laughing, we have a feeling it will happen in the next two weeks! We started sleep training this weekend and while my mama heart is breaking a bit, I know him sleeping in his own room is going to be the best for all of us. Baby loves his purple monkey piano playtime mat, the ceiling fan, bath time, being outside & is starting to take interest in his fur brother. He is very aware and will follow us with his head / eyes when we walk by. He doesn’t love the car or when he can’t reach his hands to suck on. He gets pretty grumpy when he can’t communicate what he wants, but overall he is a happy baby!
The days are long but when he looks up at me and smiles, all the difficulties seem to melt away. I thank God every day for this little boy. He is a blessing sent from above and I will forever cherish being his mama.
I’m still learning to juggle life with a new tiny sidekick, and you will be seeing way more baby content for the foreseeable future, but I hope this new stage I’m in teaches me some life lessons that I can use to inspire and connect with you all. Thanks for sticking with me!