I'm Pregnant! — Bold Female

It still feels weird typing this.. I’m Pregnant!!

We have finally shared our special secret publicly and I feel like I can function again. Hiding this news from y’all has not been easy. I have been so MIA because I felt like if I couldn’t share all of me, then I couldn’t share any of me. So here we are.. ready to share all the dirty deets.

I am 16 weeks today which is still nuts to me. On one hand I feel like the weeks are flying by and on the other hand I feel like I’ve been pregnant for so long! We got our first positive pregnancy test on December 5th when I was not even 4 weeks pregnant. We immediately downloaded apps that told us based off the first day of my last menstrual cycle I was about 7 weeks along. We wouldn’t find out until our 2nd doctors appointment on January 8th how many weeks I actually was.

Let me rewind to a few weeks before we got that positive pregnancy test. We hadn’t been trying to get pregnant, but we weren’t NOT trying if you know what I mean. At this point we have had so many conversations about creating life together and we were on the same page.. if it happened, we would be okay. In November we were getting ready to fly out to California to be with family for Thanksgiving and my sister’s gender reveal. My period was late but they kinda always were. I just had this feeling that I was pregnant and wanted to know before our trip. I bought a 2 pack of tests, took one the morning before our flight, NEGATIVE. I remember feeling odd about that because I really thought I was pregnant. We went to see our family, I drank 2 glasses of Sangria, had a few cocktails out with our friends, even popped a bottle of my favorite champagne that once I sipped it, I decided it didn’t sound good after all. I told my sister and one of my best friends I could have sworn I was pregnant but the test said negative. We flew back home December 1st. Four days later I still hadn’t started my period. That evening Josh and I went to sushi for dinner and when I got home I told him I was going to soak in the bath. Before I got in I decided on a whim that I might as well pee on the other test.. in the past just seeing that negative released enough stress for me to start my period. Then it happened.. two pink lines.. which showed up VERY quickly.

I yelled calmly for Josh to come in the bathroom, at least I thought I sounded calm but according to him he picked up a tone along the lines of “oh shit, what did I do”. When he walked in I just word vomited about taking another test and not expecting anything but but.. I motioned for him to look at the test on the bathroom counter. Positive. I remember the look in his eyes and the warm embrace he gave me as he asked me if I was okay. I wasn’t - - I sobbed telling him that I had been drinking and we just ate sushi and what the heck were we going to do now?! My relaxing bath was not going to happen after that so we both sat on the couch, cried, laughed and prayed that God would protect me and our baby.

A few days later I told a friend that lives in my area and had a baby earlier last year. I needed to know what doctor to call and what to do next. I called the doctor’s office and begged them to see me before we flew out of town for Christmas. December 17th was our first appointment. The doctor confirmed my pregnancy, we saw the little blip up on the screen, but the little tadpole was too small to measure. The doctor said I was safe to travel and that we could tell our family, but he wanted us to come back at the beginning of the year to measure the baby. We flew out to CA for Josh’s company holiday party where we shared the news with a couple of close friends.. we had to because these girls started offering me shots the second I walked in the door! I saw some of my closest friends over the next few days and spent time with family all while keeping this HUGE secret. On Christmas Eve Josh and I got to tell our families the best surprise and don’t you worry.. we have footage of that to share!

We wanted to wait to make any public announcements until I was in my second trimester. The weekend before Valentine’s day we had the best photoshoot which gave us the photos we ended up using for our Valentine’s Day announcement! And now here we are.. 16 weeks along today. Apparently I am carrying an avocado at this point. Luckily I haven’t been too sick.. some nausea, sore boobs, frequently peeing, but mostly, I have just been so exhausted. I finally feel like I am getting some energy back. And yes, I have a baby bump. I have always had a super flat stomach so if you know me well, you can tell.. if you don’t know me well, I still look like I ate a burrito. Apparently the baby is supposed to double in size int he next few weeks so THAT should be interesting.

We’ve also had an envelope since around week 11 that tells us the gender of the baby.. It is locked away until we can film or reveal which hopefully happens this weekend! EEK, I can’t freaking wait! Stay tuned for that.

But for now, baby Ward is due August 12th, 2020!

We are still shocked, overwhelmed, excited but most of all feeling blessed that I am carrying our child.

Y’all, WE ARE HAVING A BABY!